My life is my canvas. I can create my life to be whatever it is that I want it to be. Right now it is sad. It is bittersweet. It is lonely. And I am okay with that. My pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses my understanding. (quote by... read more
I am finally back in action after a much needed solo retreat. I spent time relaxing, got a facial and a massage, admired the palm trees and soaked up the sunshine by the pool (it had a sandy bottom, how amazing is that?!). I journaled, I wrote and recorded... read more
There are so many women that ask me about eating disorder recovery meal plans, how much do I eat, when do I eat, what do I eat, how do I learn how to eat intuitively?!?!? There seems to be so much confusion and also controversy surrounding meal plans for eating... read more
Many of the women I work with in my private eating disorder coaching programs say they WANT to learn how to love themselves, but it feels scary and uncomfortable and they don’t know HOW to do it. Most of us NEVER loved ourselves before, so of course it will... read more
Did you know that every action in recovery is an act of self-love for yourself? It’s no wonder then that most women stay trapped in their eating disorders, because they don’t love themselves! For me personally, I hated myself with a passion for most of... read more
Happy New Year!!! I am so excited for this time of year, letting go of the old and getting ready for the new to enter. I had such a wonderful Christmas holiday and spent a lot of time this month reflecting on 2013 and setting my goals and intentions for the new year.... read more
This week in our 6 week guided Healing Your ED Ecourse, we are going through the physical level of healing in my ebook Roots + Nourishment. We are talking about how to nourish your body and how this physical level of healing can be seen as the foundation for... read more
I have found more amazing eating disorder quotes!! Well none of them really have anything to do with recovery exactly, but I call them recovery quotes for eating disorders because they help us to gain a better understanding of what we are going through and make sense... read more
Here is a poem I wrote when I was at my worst…rock bottom and feeling very depressed. It felt like the eating disorder was overcoming me and I was powerless to stop it. I was so lost, so sick and felt so alone… June 5, 2007 “Miserable going... read more
Here is a delicious recipe that I have used in my recovery for eating disorders and you can use it as a part of your recovery meal plan too! Eating Disorder Meal Plan Recipe: Seitan Veggie Quinoa Stir-fry This recipe will make 2-3 servings and you can always change it... read more
I wanted to share with you what exactly it was that helped me break free from the eating disorder and all of its dysfunction. But first you have to know, that there’s not just one *simple* answer. I spent many years “struggling” in recovery for... read more
Enjoy this recently written poem. Sometimes I forget how awful it was being back in the eating disorder. It controlled me – I was a slave to it at my worst, and most people don’t understand what that’s like. This poem especially illustrates how... read more
In recovery for eating disorders, I’m sure you’ve heard that eating disorders aren’t actually about food, weight and eating after all. I mean definitely, yes, on the outside that is how it appears, but when you keep stripping down the layers,... read more
For a long time I believed that I was “broken” and that there was something innately wrong with me. I believed that it was all my fault; however I also believed that I was a victim and I blamed everyone around me. I believed that I was bad, that I was... read more
This weekend marked the release of my very first ebook, called Inspiring Recovery: A Healing Workbook to Inspire + Support Full Eating Disorder Recovery!!!! Yayyy for you because you can get it right now, completely FREEEE!!! But first, let me tell you... read more
Last week when I was having a session with one of the women I was mentoring, she asked me a question that really made me think… “How did you learn how to let others support you in your eating disorder recovery?” It really took me back a second,... read more
I HAVE BEEN cleaning out my house this past week and it has felt so good!!! Cleaning out the closets, desks, and basement just getting rid of things that I don’t need and organizing the rest. I’ve taken bags upon bags to Goodwill, given bags to my family and I... read more
You inspire me with your courage, your determination and your commitment to overcoming the eating disorder. Not only overcoming but believing and truly understanding what it means to be free. You inspire me because you don’t and won’t ever give up in your... read more
A lot of times in our eating disorder recovery we are focused on the wrong things! We put so much energy into thinking about NOT binging that it actually is counter-productive because it just makes you want to binge MORE! When you are thinking about food, obsessing... read more
I want to explain the absolute basic truths that you need to know in your personal recovery from eating disorders – whether you’re in recovery for bulimia, anorexia, binge eating, ednos – it all applies. I wish there were someone there for me when I... read more
Today, my dad got remarried and it got me thinking about new beginnings and starting over in our eating disorder recovery. My dad was married for almost 30 years when he and my mom got divorced years ago. Now he is starting over, starting a life with his new wife... read more
I got a phone call this morning from a dear old friend. It was early, about 7:30 am, and I haven’t talked to her in a few months. I smiled when I saw her name on the caller ID and picked it up with my cheerful good morning voice. She obviously was not having... read more
Why is it that we run away from who we are? Why is it so hard to just be in the moment and be accepting of what is? At times, my mind races to find new things to grasp onto, new puzzles to solve, new ideas to learn. I find it challenging sometimes to slow down and... read more
I’ve been lost for words lately. It’s been over a week since I’ve posted on the blog. I don’t know why I’ve been so “out there” Sometimes things happen in our lives and we go off course. We get off track and then we think,... read more
Here are some selected eating disorder quotes by close friends, humble souls that I spent many days and nights with in the halls of the inpatient eating disorder treatment center. These are taken from a journal entitled “A drink of hope comes from Love.”... read more
For me, the eating disorder behaviors were a distraction. I wasn’t happy. I didn’t feel fulfilled or content. I hated myself. I wanted to disappear and scream at the top of my lungs at the same time. I wanted things to change and things to stay the same at... read more
When I began my eating disorder recovery, I realized that I didn’t really know what a “healthy” relationship was. I didn’t know how to create boundaries within my relationships or ask for what I really needed. I was afraid of intimacy and... read more
In the infinity of life where I am, all is perfect, whole, and complete. I recognize my body as a good friend. Each cell in my body has Divine Intelligence. I listen to what it tells me, and know that its advice is valid. I am always safe, and... read more
Raw Ramblings of My Recovery for Bulimia. Some content could be triggering/disturbing, so please read at your own risk. These are actual journal entries written when I was deep in the depths of the eating disorder, depression and anxiety, trying desperately to... read more
In the throes of the eating disorder madness and depression, and especially when I began my recovery for bulimia, I wrote a lot. Journaling, writing eating disorder poems and free writing was a way for me to express myself. Here are some selected eating disorder... read more