Fuck it’s a new year already. 2016. Yes I started a blog post with a swear word precisely because that is how I feel right now!!
I don’t know why year after year I feel unprepared for the upcoming year… and then BOOM when it happens– January 1st is upon us and I feel like I should have my shit together. I feel like I should have bigger, better, more concrete goals. I feel like I should finally feel ready and motivated to make shit happen, but I don’t.
I don’t buy into New Years Resolutions anymore. Once upon a time I believed that I could magically wish for something — for me to be different, for me to finally change the one thing that I wanted to change — and that this NEW YEAR would be THE YEAR that I would make it happen. Of course, it’s so cliche, but yes I would jump on the New Years Resolution bandwagon only to find a few weeks in… who am I kidding?!… a few days later I’m back to my old habits.
How do we change our habits then? You know damn well old habits don’t die fast, especially if there’s some sort of secondary gain to them, or it is easier and more comfortable to stay in the old habits. Changing habits has WAY more to do with our mindset, motivation and commitment to change than anything.
The Question becomes, WHEN are you going to get yourself so FUCKING FIRED UP about CHANGE that you actually go out there and MAKE SHIT HAPPEN?! What do you need to do so that you are so MADLY PASSIONATE about what you are doing that NOTHING can stand in your way? That it’s no longer a question of IF you are going to change those old habits it is WHEN is it going to become a natural ingrained habit? This has NOTHING to do with what YEAR it is, because let’s face it: most people FAIL at those, and if you’re only setting goals when the new year comes around, well then that is another habit that also needs changing 🙂
I don’t set New Years Resolutions anymore because I’m already working towards everything I want in life. I live my life by a set of Values that guide my actions and also allow me to set very clear Intentions based on following what is most important in my life. ALL of my goals are expansive and freeing and allow me to be in FLOW and move towards my life’s purpose and passion, so that I can manifest more of THOSE things in my life every fucking day.
It irks me to see people setting New Years Resolutions that have NOTHING to do with what REALLY matters to those people– they don’t resonate on a deeper level, they are not totally passionate and fired up and they don’t see how those goals line up in the grand scheme of things. When you set goals that don’t matter, you get results that also don’t matter.
So FUCK New Years Resolutions. Instead– focus on what really matters to you right now, regardless of what month and day it is. Sure, its fun to think about what’s going to happen this year— “OOOHH a new opportunity, a fresh start, blah blah blah”— HOW CAN YOU LET GO of the fact that change is not a ONE TIME decision and realize that change is really a DAILY opportunity to continue to focus on what REALLY MATTERS each and every day??????
Each and every day is a new opportunity to wake the fuck up and start living your life.
What would happen if you believed that each day was a New Year for you to start over and live your greatest life, one where you consistently trust yourself enough to work towards your biggest goals and dreams on a daily basis?
How would that CHANGE YOUR LIFE?
Well, for me, I thought I was doing really great! Went thru a bad year, finally turned to family and friends, then planned a great bday for my super supportive husband, but rather than being able to go out of town, we had a clog in the pipes due to food residue… I feel very pressed in my own life to make a change that is real. Everyday is a chance to make a change, even if it isn’t perfect! This life is overwhelming, and dealing with an eating disorder is overwhelming, but guess what? How much worse could life be?! How about living in an environment where few people eat every day and have no septic/sewer systems? Come on people. We CAN do better!
Hi Char!
I can relate wholeheartedly to how you feel. But what you are expressing here feels a bit like shaming yourself. What do you think? Has this type of mindset really worked in helping you change in the past? Probably not. Rather than shame yourself for not changing, how can you focus on what you ARE doing right and focus on what you DO want in your life? Why do you feel PRESSED to make a change, where does the urgency lie?
What is your biggest dream? What do you WANT?
In light + love,
Lauren
My biggest dream? To be free of this disorder! To be able to love and embrace food without gaining weight. To be “normal”. 😊
Great!!! What does being “normal” mean to you Char?
I love this !!! We get to decide how we show up in life! I’ve been in the darkness and now I’m in the light and I want to shine!!!!!want to help others shine and truly practice self love ! My disease was self harm I’m done with it I’m I’m joy to be in recovery !!!!!!!!!!!!!!love to uuuu
Thank you Randi!! Yes your greatest gift to yourself will be the gift of unconditional love and acceptance for yourself.
Much love xoxo
Lauren