It has been a while since I have written. To be honest, I’ve felt a bit disconnected to you. For some reason I’ve convinced myself that I don’t resonate anymore with where you’re at. It is hard for me to remember some of the things that I’ve been through with the eating disorder, as they were so long ago.
But when I really think about it, how hard is it really for me to get back there, to put myself back in your shoes and remember the desperation, the hopelessness, the despair, the feeling of being out of control and deep deep sadness?
Not very difficult at all. I think what I really go through now is wanting to share my experience as I am NOW, and I get stuck because I feel like its SO much different than where you are with the eating disorder. I haven’t been blogging or writing and creating new articles and videos because I’ve really gotten to this point where I ask myself– what do I share? What do these women want and need to hear?
And then when I ask this question, I get confused because what I think you need and want to hear is different than what I actually want to share. Which is ME. I want to share all of me. How I am now. What I’m working on. How I’ve gotten to where I am now and what my process is like on a daily basis.
These two things are different and separate in my head and I want to know– what do YOU want to know?
Do you want more videos and articles on the “how to” recover, how to do certain things in recovery, how myself and how I’ve helped hundreds of women do the same?
Or do you want to hear about how I navigate my life, my business and my relationships now on the other side of the fence?
This literally has been a conflict inside of me for a while, and now that I’m writing it, I’m seeing how it doesn’t have to be both. I could do both and don’t have to be so black and white.
Beautiful soul, what do YOU want to hear from me? Do you want more authenticity from my own life or more “how-to” videos on different topics in recovery?
Please leave a comment below and let me know!!!
Sending soooooo much love and healing energy to you!!!
In light + love,